Eating

This pregnancy has been so weird. I have been as sick as a dog and have only gained 3 pounds (I'm 21 weeks), however I feel so fat. Not pregnant, fat. It must be the way I am carrying or something, but I already have a double chin and I am as wide as I am deep. I am sure a huge part of this is mental. I am struggling emotionally with darn near everything else in my life, midaswell add on feeling ugly.

The problem (or excuse)? When I do have an appetite, all I want is grease and meat. It's funny, I had one day in particular where I threw up all morning, and then Doug took me to Boston Pizza where I ate a whole 8 oz steak and mashed potatoes, in ONE sitting! The real amazing thing - I kept it all down. Same with last night. I ate a hamburger (sans bun) and french fries for dinner and I kept it all down, yet when I ate an apple sauce earlier, I got sick.

SO, my goal for today is to go on-line and find healthier alternative to the foods I want. Once I comprise my list, I will share :)

Jess